Dolce Vita . Dolce Vita . Dolce Vita: 2017

Monday 19 June 2017

A little flashback. I had been in a serious relationship for about 5 or 6 years (cannot remember exactly, CHAR haha). I was the one who initiated to end through a messenger, yes! you read it right, not call nor in person. First, I was away, 1000 miles away from him, LDR since 2012. Second, I don't like to see him. haha! anyway, during the time that I sent him the message, I was totally recovered from pain I endured from the entire years I suffer because I had no trust in him anymore. Its kind of relief and happiness and I considered it as one of the best decision I had made from my 27th existence. (I am 29 turning 30 soon)

Anyway, I traveled to Japan after that. I think Japan played so much of my year lately, I will write soon why. hahaha. First Christmas and New Year and oh! Valentines day as single. It was interesting and fun after all. After few months, one of my friend insisted to start to get back into dating and meeting some interesting guys. So I was introduced to one of her friends, a Korean. I remember it was 3rd week of June 2016 when we started messaging each other and getting to some basic details about ourselves. It was very funny haha. E kasi naman, we had all english language conversation haha. Anyway, He is 33 during that time and I was 28. He works here in Singapore as newbie expat (me, since 2012). He also taught me some basic korean language as well which is cute. Anyway, his working hours are a little long compare to mine and he has working during my off days (sundays and public holidays) so figuratively, our schedules are a bit non-comparable but then he still finds time to be in-touch.

I cannot stop comparing my old friend to him, as in. Maybe because I had been in a relationship very long time. I mean I was attached to a person in a very long period and I can say that it was pretty serious. believe me. When I was in my previous relationship I am always the one who ask first if where he was, whats he up to. Unlike with my Kguy, he is the one who always initiates and ask what I am up to and always have this Good morning kind of message and always tells good night. It took me 3 weeks to go out with him.

I was nervous when the day of "date" goes by. 14.07 It was memorable, of course. We had dinner and a movie afterwards. We dine in Italian restaurant after we bought the movie tickets. During dinner, he shared to me all his experience in the Philippines (he studied English in my home country) and he told me that he also tried to get a job there. I realized that he is the only one talking during the entire conversation and I was just having bites of my food while listening to his enthusiastic story telling. I was amused. He is very fluent and confident. Moreover, the movie we watched is Ghostbusters in Orchard. It finished late. Since he just stayed in Orchard area, I asked him that I am cool to drop by near taxi lane and no need to drop me at home. So thats what happened, we don't have to queue that time and he opened the car door for me. He is a gentleman haha. I never expect that. anyway.

I dont know why what exactly had happened but I feel like after the night, it seems that he was my beau already. Maybe its his culture. Nothing had changed after all. I remember there was this evening, I asked him what he is doing and he replied that I should listen to Westlife song and he gave me the title and linked. I was really shocked!!!! I never told him what I really felt after finishing the chorus. Because it was a love song! haha. and I did not asked so much about that night and he never bragged to after hearing the song,s i think that was fine. haha. Dedma lang ako kasi I am not sure if that song has a meaning and if he is sending signals or what.

Then nationl day had came. I was with my girlfriends the entire day and I never told him that I was out during that day. When evening came and he had finished work, he mesage me that he was in his way home and he asked me what did I do so I mentioned that I was out and went along with my girlfriends. He took a little long to reply which is unusual so I was thinking if he is mad or what. So I initiated to message him goodnight and he never replied. hahaha

one. two. three days had passed and he message me Good morning and I was surprised haha. As if nothing had happened. and I response, and I wondered why and what had happened. He honestly opened up that he message me after three days because I never respond to him on our last conversation which was three days. Since I was super turned off, i never asked what did he sent to me that I did not reply. I just passed out. He seemed pretty normal and I am not into it anymore kasi nga napaka-childlish dba! haha. So he felt na I am reluctant na. But to be honest, until today I was still wondering what if I had the courage to ask him what exactly the message right, haha, so sana naging aware and alam ko pero nakakatamad kasi tanungin noon so dedmakels ako.

On that specific time and day, I realized that I cannot be with that kind of person. And its petty the fact that we are not in a relationship so I don't feel any guilt and I just carried on. And then I realized that we are on different culture, maybe he thought that after the date we had is a start of "us" being as in a relationship. I find it weird but I am totally fine with what had happened :) I think I can considered is a lesson of acknowledging different culture and realizing that each person is truly unique and have different ideology i dont know haha. I am just saying.

I sometime see him when he was assigned near the Dental clinic I always had appointment. I realized one thing. You cannot force yourself to be with someone just for the sake of not being alone. He is kind, confident and gentleman and he is ready to settle down. But then, I am not. Maybe because he wants to be fast forward and I am in a slow pace. I just got freed from a toxic relationship and having fun having me-time. I still remember him and definitely won't forget ^^.

That's the start of meeting others. :)

OMG madami din pala akong nakilala within the year hahahaha! I make kwento soon.